Saturday, December 8, 2012

So My Muse is as ADHD as I Am

I swear, I will finish this novel. I WILL. I SWEAR IT. UPON THE BLOOD OF THE THOUSANDS OF UNICORNS I WILL HAVE TO SLAUGHTER TO MAKE MYSELF IMMORTAL TO HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO FINISH IT IF IT BECOMES NECESSARY. But unfortunately, my muse is as easily distracted as I am and keeps giving me new threads of plot that my fingers are just itching to start on. In a couple of cases, I've lost the battle and wrote a little of them before I got back to my NaNo novel... but I will persevere, I swear it!

On a related topic, for anyone who would like an idea of what I've been writing for the past month, the title is "The Society" and the synopsis is as follows:

Thomas Quinn lives in a world where excess of technology is considered to be the bane of mankind after a tech-driven catastrophe decimated most of the world's population. Nature is nonexistent, for the planet had already been taken over by concrete and metal in the generations before he and his friends were born. Their city is a very rigid, structured place where every individual must fit into one category in which he or she can do the most good for everyone else. Thomas is a rare case, and faces a choice between two aptitudes: Oratory, the leaders and speakers who keep the city alive; or Challenger, the hardened warriors who fight on the front lines against the rogue mech that constantly threaten the people. But Thomas's dormmate, Joe Carpenter, is an even rarer case still—two days before Thomas must make the biggest decision of his life, Joe is told that he has no aptitude whatsoever. And when Thomas learns the fate that waits for those the council has decided cannot give back to their gloriously self-sustaining culture and meets the ones who have escaped it, his view of the society he's believed in his entire life may change forever.

Obviously, it's kind of a dystopia but without much of the sci-fi element that comes into a lot of them. There isn't a lot of majorly advanced technology because most of it was completely stopped when the former global society was destroyed... at least, as far as Thomas knows, right? ;) Aaand if you just happen to be dying for more, here's an excerpt! If you like my writing, stay tuned--I plan on completing and editing this for publication via Amazon.

THE SOCIETY
by Tabatha Summers, ©2012



The sign lying in the gritty road read Lauderdale Memorial Parkway—pretty ironic, considering that no one around here had any idea who or what “Lauderdale” had ever been. Maybe he was some important orator who had united a people. Maybe that was the name of the cataclysm that had ripped the world apart. Then again, maybe it had just been someone’s pet dog.

But no, I was letting my mind wander; I had to focus! An important part of this challenge, of every challenge that Proctor Anders gave me, was to maintain my focus despite whatever odds and distractions were piled against me. Narrowing my eyes, I tried to see past the smoke and grime that veiled the city and whatever else might be lurking just beyond my sight.

There! Between the shell of a rusty old train car and the wall of what might once have been a warehouse was the target I had been sent after.  But as I honed in on the object I had been searching for, I became suddenly aware of the heavy footfalls behind me. They were coming, and there was nothing between me and the advancing army. I could either hide, watching them take my objective from a place of safety, or fight them and most likely be taken down. This was exactly the type of no-win situation that proved strength of character and will. Setting my jaw, I turned to face the footsteps and my own imminent defeat.

And then I thought of something.

It was probably crazy, so completely insane that I would surely be kicked out of the Challenger program if I was wrong. Yet as always, a nagging voice in the back of my head reminded me that I just might be right, and if I was, it might even be something no one else had ever thought of before.
A streak of yellow light cut through the fog, undoubtedly searching for me, and I made up my mind. If nothing else, I had to know.

I turned so abruptly that my boots sent gravel flying before I even took off. I heard a buzzing behind me that I knew meant my adversaries had pinpointed my location, but I didn’t allow myself to look back even as several more yellow lights illuminated the ground in front of me and the small leather package I was racing toward.

Something snagged my heel and I fell, rocks grinding into my forearms as I caught myself. I ignored them and jerked at my ankle, which I now realized was wrapped with a thinly coiled wire. The blue sparks coming off it told me that it was electrified, and the only reason it hadn’t already shocked me unconscious was that my boot had buffered the current before it could touch my skin.

Another attempt to yank my leg free was also to no avail, and then I could see the shapes of their bodies looming up ahead. Desperately, I tugged at the shoelace, narrowly avoiding a flicker of electricity off the wire as the knot came loose. Bracing my free foot against the heel of my trapped one, I pulled with all my might and somehow my foot came loose, sock coming within a hair’s breadth of the wire as it constricted the now-empty shoe.

I didn’t know how close they had gotten while I struggled and I didn’t stop to check, just launched myself forward with new resolve. I had barely cleared the entrance of the dilapidated train car when something thudded against the iron outside. Undoubtedly it was another electric lash, and it was lucky I had dodged it because I had no more time to spare.

Practically throwing myself out the other side of the hollow car, I landed in the grit and tried to slide the door closed as a temporary barrier. But the door was rusted and not properly on the track, and as soon as I heard the distressed screech of metal, I gave that up. Besides, if I was right, all I needed was the package.

Almost on cue, one of the yellow lights focused on my location, illuminating the carriage’s shadow and the small leather bag dangling a foot from my left hand. It was a courier’s purse, just like my mission briefing had described, and it was firmly stuck on a part of the train’s wheel that I didn’t know the name for. I tried to pull it loose, but neither the thick leather strap nor the corroded metal would give. Another electric lash struck the metal and bounced away, twisting on the ground like a snake made of lightning. I had no time for this.

For a second, I fumbled with the catch on the bag, and by the time I got it open, the shadows of my pursuers were so close that I knew they would be turning the corner any moment. Jerking back the flap, I reached inside and at first thought in a panic that it was empty. Then my fingers closed around a cube in the corner and I pulled it out frantically.

One side of the thing was about the size of my palm, and I had never seen anything like it before. It seemed to be made of two different types of metal set in with tiny flickering images under glass. I had no idea what any of it meant, and my first impulse was to drop the thing like a hot coal—things like this were dangerous! This was exactly the type of tech that had split the world, which every child was warned of in school from the time they were old enough to listen.

Then they came around the corner, and I realized I was wrong; they were the tech that had ripped society apart. Some had been built to look like men, with bodies made of the same metals I had just seen on the cube and glowing yellow spotlights in place of eyes. I was nearly blinded when they all focused on me at once, and ducked back to the other side of the train car for cover.

If I figured right, I probably had less than ten seconds. I didn’t think my heart had ever been beating faster, but I tried to ignore it. Ten seconds was enough time to figure out how this thing worked, right? Of course, that was assuming my hunch had been right in the first place…

I turned the cube over in my hands, my mind turning even faster. The tiny images, I now realized, were actually buttons, for they gave way beneath my fingers. The images even seemed to change when I pressed them, but I had no idea what any of them meant; they had only symbols, no words. Desperation took hold and I considered smashing it against the ground, though I doubted that would solve anything. But as my fingers clenched around it, suddenly one square lit up bright yellow. Exactly the same bright yellow as their spotlight eyes.

Heart hammering in my chest, I pressed the yellow light and held it in. Three seconds… two seconds… The lights on the cube abruptly all flickered off, and the motorized whirring of the mech-men’s footsteps came to a sudden stop. I almost didn’t dare to breathe as I leaned to check around the corner.

The mech-men had crumpled like marionettes with their strings cut, and I breathed a sigh of relief. I had been right!

“Excellent work,” said a familiar voice, and it took a tremendous amount of willpower to keep from letting Proctor Anders see that he had startled me. I kept on a straight face though when I turned to face him, inclining my head appreciatively.

“Thank you, sir.”

Proctor Anders was one of the younger instructors at the Institute, but he was probably nearing forty years old, and the lines around his dark eyes showed it. Just then, he also had a line between his eyebrows, and he seemed to be looking at me as if he couldn’t figure me out.

“Mr. Quinn, how did you know that cube would control the mechs?”

Something in his tone put me on my guard. I knew without being told that my answer too would be part of this test, and I cleared my throat to give myself time to think of the right words before answering.

“My orders in the mission briefing were to retrieve an item of vital importance that had been lost in enemy territory. The letter also stated that the item in question would be the key to defeating the mechs in the area. I was cornered, and I drew a conclusion; it turned out to be the right one.”

Proctor Anders nodded understandingly, though his eyes remained unreadable as always. “And how did you know the correct deactivation sequence?”

I didn’t recognize the words; I wasn’t in the Mechnotechnology program, after all. My expression must have given away my ignorance, because he repeated more clearly, “How did you know how to make the cube shut off the mechs?”

I smiled tightly, but I didn’t lie to sound smarter than I really was. “I didn’t know. But one of the screens started to glow the color of their eyes. I thought it was my best bet.”

“A very good guess,” Proctor Anders said, sounding satisfied. “You are certainly coming to show that you have the instincts to be a top-notch Challenger, Mr. Quinn.”

I finally let myself breathe again at that. I had passed yet again, where so many failed. The Challenger program was one of the most difficult to remain in all the way through ten years of aptitude honing, but I was almost there; my eighteenth birthday would be in two days, and then I would have my dedication day. If I made it two more days, at least—the last week of tests were known all around to be the toughest, set by the proctors to be completely certain anyone without the appropriate aptitudes had been weeded out.

“Here, I’ll dispose of that,” Proctor Anders said, holding out his hand for the cube, which I gave over gladly. He must have noticed my expression, because he smiled wryly. “They’re right to tell you that tech is dangerous, you know,” he said in a voice I hadn’t heard before, serious and pensive. “Uncontrolled tech caused a lot of damage to our world that can never be repaired—and you’ve seen a little of what the mechs can do in training.” He paused and scratched at the dark stubble on his chin before adding, “But not all of it is overtly dangerous. You ride in autos and don’t think of them like the uncontainable ones, right? They’re mechs as well—of a much simpler variety. And we still use small forms of tech in keypads on doors and everything else electrical. Lines aren’t always simply drawn between black and white or good and evil. Make sure you remember that, and never let anyone convince you to lose the ability to draw your own conclusions if you dedicate to Challenger.”

I nodded, and just like that his normal unreadable expression was back as he called on a short-wave radio for a car to take us back to the city. But I couldn’t help but think that perhaps Proctor Anders had just given me my first real glimpse into the mind of an experienced Challenger.

Friday, November 30, 2012

Operation NaNoWriMo Is A Success!

世界对你来说没有不可能!
^ That right there was probably the most awesome thing anyone told me this month about my ability to write a novel. Per my friend Kelley, it roughly translates to, "There is nothing in the world that is impossible for you."

It's been a crazy month. Somehow in between an anime convention, a birthday, Black Friday, overtime, and getting sick the very last week of November, I just validated my novel at 50,483 words over 13 chapters. (It's still incomplete, but I'll let you all know when I cap off those final chapters.) I still have laryngitis, need a shower, my room needs cleaned, I have a stack of books I want to read and video games I want to play that have piled up, and I need to wrap a metric ton of Christmas presents, but I've never felt more accomplished in my life.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

End of Another ABC

Well, another Anime Blast Chattanooga is almost over, and it's gone so fast this year that it's scary. I slept through the end of last night, which upsets me a little because that means I missed the Eric Stuart Band concert. :-/ I guess at least I didn't miss seeing him getting into the elevator while I was adjusting a Misty wig this year though lol.

ABC this year really was a blast. I was Olette from Kingdom Hearts the first day, Zoey from Left 4 Dead the second, and in the morning I will be Jill Valentine from Resident Evil--the original, with the shoulderpads and the beret and all that fun stuff.

The only bad part about ABC so far has been how much it's distracted me from NaNoWriMo. I'm actually participating this year, which is a first for me as I never have enough time. I was keeping pace until this weekend, and even though I've written over 2,000 words this morning, I'm still not caught up. But I will get there if I have to sit out half of the rest of the con!

Friday, July 20, 2012

Life Goes On (Whether You Want It To Or Not)

Sometimes, nothing turns out quite like you ever thought it would. Actually, I guess that's most of the time, isn't it? At least, if your name is Tabatha Summers. Maybe I should marry some guy and change that, eh? Haha, right. Because anything like that will ever happen to me.

I keep telling myself I shouldn't feel guilty for doing what's right for me, but I don't know if I will ever get used to knowing I've hurt someone else, especially someone I love. When I broke up with Robert at the end of May, I didn't know what to do with myself. I've never had the greatest self-esteem or sense of purpose, and he always, *always* made me feel like I had a reason for being here, even if it was only to wipe away his tears. But now I can't do that anymore, and even if I could, he would hate me for trying.

Well, I say that as if he doesn't already hate me. It sounds stupid to say, but I believed him when he promised he would never hate me for leaving him. I really thought, or maybe just hoped, that he could move on with his own life without cursing the part of it he spent with me. Maybe it's just because I know I'll always love him and the time we spent together, even though I had to end it.

It's not that I miss being with him, or at least the way he treated me when I was with him. I just couldn't take the doubting anymore. A year and a half is too long to spend with someone and still not know who she is. When he said he didn't think I love him, that was just it. I knew in that moment that was how he would always be, and I just couldn't do that forever.

But at the same time, I'll never stop loving him. I don't know if it's fortunate or unfortunate, but that's just not how it works for me. Maybe I fall too hard when I fall in love, but that's how I've always been. Love is never temporary, even if sometimes I've wished I could stop caring so much about someone. Because nothing breaks my heart more than someone I love coming to hate me, and I guess this is the second time I'll have to watch that happen.

He deleted me off everything when I started seeing a guy from work. Right before that, he said something on facebook about "that moment your ex starts dating the guy she fell for while with you." And I know it's all that same paranoia that drove me crazy while I was with him, but it hurts unimaginably that he would say something like that about me. That he would even think I could disregard him that way. I don't just fall for someone, and he of all people should know that. I've learned by now that that's exactly what gives someone the power to hurt you the most, and right now, he's proving it.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Plotting and Happenstance

Well, I've been neglecting this blog for a while, but I figured, as with most things, I would be more like to utilize it if it connects directly to my smartphone. And voilá--Android market! Oh, how I love thee.

Anyway, I've decided to keep this blog as my cosplay journal, and start a new one for my book reviews... mainly because that way, I'm less likely to spam people who aren't interested.

So what has happened since I last updated? Well, much. I quit my job at Walmart and got a new one at Amazon. Translation in reference to this blog: more money for cosplay! As such, I have two cons planned in the very near future, MomoCon at the end of March and MTAC at the beginning of April. Here are the details on that so far.

For Momo, only my boyfriend Robert and I will be going, and our costumes will be Zoey and the Hunter from Left 4 Dead; Albert Wesker and Jill Valentine from the original Resident Evil; and Alexander Anderson and Sir Integra Wingates Hellsing from Hellsing. Currently, that is the order by day, as well.

For MTAC, we have a group of 3 other friends coming with us, but only one (Emily) cosplaying in theme with us. The costume plans are for a Final Fantasy X group (me as Lulu, Robert as Auron, and Emily as Yuna); a Bleach group (Robert as Arrancar-arc Aizen, me as Loly, and Emily as either Menoly or Orihime); and a Fullmetal Alchemist group (me as Lust and Robert as Greed).

Most of the work for Momo is done, but a lot remains left to do for MTAC, and my sewing machine appears to have picked an opportune time to break down, so I'll keep you posted!